I know I have been pretty distant for a while. There is a weird confluence of events, but there is also the question for me about what makes a good blog posting. In my mind, insecurities and vulnerabilities are dramatically interesting. For the most part, I don't find a happy day all that dramatically interesting. And,when this blog was completely anonymous, I used it as a type of therapy. This was where I worked through my various difficulties.
Something has happened the last couple of months. My outward conditions haven't changed. I'm not in love and don't have anyone special on the immediate horizon. But I would say I'm happier. I don't know how, but I do feel it is my bones. And that makes for boring blogging, at least from my point of view. I also wonder if blogging encourages me to focus on my neuroses and vulnerabilities because I do think they are more worth sharing than just a happy day. Finally, it is weird if I do meet someone, if I blog about him here and MaxEarnest knows, but the new guy doesn't. If I were a guy, that would really feel like a breech of trust. For all those reasons, I seem to be stepping back from the blog for a bit. I'm sure it is a tool I will want again at some point. But for those of you who have been worried about me, I'm doing just fine. More than fine. I'm laughing and dancing.
