Maxearnest just continually surprises me in these amazing, giving ways.
I went in to work today early for a meeting, which cut our time short this morning. When I get to work, it turns out the guy I was supposed to meet was cancelling, but he e-mailed the secretary at 11pm last night (instead of calling me to let me know) and the secretary didn't get in until after our meeting was supposed to happen. So I told Maxearnest I was frustrated. And he just said he was sorry for my frustration and that the guy who cancelled shouldn't have. But that was such a gift to me. It felt like he cared. This is the professional side of me, not at my best--in a bit of a self-righteous snit. And he still cares.
All my life, my dad has lectured me that I shouldn't get annoyed when people do things like that, or far worse--malicious things--I'm always the one that was 'fun to tease' and so it was like I asked for it--even when I came home with a broken arm from getting beaten up by bigger kids, it was always my fault.
I do think empathy is where my dad just fails. In many ways, he's a good man. He tries to do what is right, but he is defining what is right by this 1960s-EST-Me self-centeredness. He just doesn't think about other people. At all. Eventually, I learned to try and stop getting empathy from my dad. Except when I'd need it most. Then I'd slip and try and get it. But it was futile and I mostly learned better.
But I still missed it.
And here is Maxearnest just empathizing with me. Over something little, something silly, something I probably would be a better person if I didn't let it annoy me. And the fact that he can give me that gift is just so embracing.
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