Brunch

So, Edwin called.  And he sounded so excited to see me.  (It turns out he lived here years ago, not months ago; some family member must have had an amazon.com address.)  I said something like "well, now you have an another Christmas present" and he said "Two--it is so great to get to see you!"  And then he said "Do you want to get together?" and he sounded unsure, which made me realize that I was deeply ambivalent about seeing him, but of course, I agreed to get together.  It has been years. But it made me sad, and a little panicky.  I've been out of sorts all day.  It's just brunch.  I don't know why this scares me.